Thorns:
OK, I’m a little sick of having
the “thorn thing” in common with Paul!
You know how he prayed and prayed to have the thorn removed from his
side and for reasons we were never privileged to hear (nor do I think was Paul), they continued to haunt him.
Well, that’s my life right
now. The THORN IS BACK, only at a
slightly different angle and perhaps not as big as it has felt in the past. Yet it continues to fester, using
my emotional reserves to dig deep into my bag of ‘coping skills’. One of my biggest problems is the
injustice of it all! AGAIN! I mean AGAIN Lord! This is downright unfair, Lord. WHY?
If it sounds like I’m whining, I
guess I am – maybe not such a good coping strategy! But there you have it!
Birthdays:
Yesterday was my birthday. I had a wonderful lunch with my
husband, son, and daughter-in-law, received lovely cards, phone calls, e-mails
and texts (yes, times they are a changing!) – I knew I was dearly loved and
celebrated. But you can probably
guess where I am going with this – the THORN trumped everything else. As hard as I tried to ignore it and dab
it with a bit of healing ointment, it was just not to be – even on my birthday. So by the end of the day, along with
the festering thorn, I was beating myself up pretty badly for not being able to
rise above it all!
Honesty:
Later in the evening, two friends
phoned to ask about my day and I decided to give an honest response. I told them I blew it! I gave my power to a thorn instead of
celebrating my life and all the wonderful, caring, loving friends and family
with whom I am blessed. As I
spoke, I literally felt my body start to relax. I began to have compassion for ME, as my friends enfolded me
with their love and compassion!
Yes, this is another rough patch, but it needn’t define who I am – or my
birthday!
My very dear friend, who is on
vacation this week, lovingly ‘listened’ via email (because she too asked and
pretending just doesn’t work between us – even if we are out of town!!!) I will close with her
thoughts: “So try not to let the
thorn have the day AFTER your birthday too. Happy Day After Your Birthday!”
Today’s a new day; I hope to celebrate newfound freedom from the THORN. I must remember "One day at a time" - or - "One hour at a time", whichever works best!! However today turns out, I know I'm being held in love and prayers - and that is cause to give thanks!